Childhood

I was born and raised in New York City, amongst the creatives of the Lower East Side, and other neighborhoods. I grew up going to arts based public schools since 5th grade, including the prestigious LaGuardia High School, where my classmates have become A-List stars like Timothee Chalamet and more.

My home life was alternative and a bit chaotic, with a very modern family when it came to sex, drugs, and rock and roll, and being raised in the Shaolin Temple of NYC. My mother is Jewish, my father is British and Brazilian, and my stepmother is Jamaican, though I had several stepmothers from various cultures such as Puerto Rico, Malay-Chinese, Russian, and Polish.

I grew up learning about tarot, tantra, magic, astrology and the occult due to the spiritual awakening of my father.

I found out I could make my own choices at 6 years old, when I learned about vegetarianism and decided that I was one. With a strong intuition and sense of self, I also would preach to my family about the importance of feeling and expressing emotions. Usually the most sensitive child becomes the black sheep.

I also thought that everyone could hear each other’s thoughts, that this was a normal experience.

Adolescence

I was highly sensitive my whole life, obsessed with fashion and the underground arts scene of NYC, and learned from an early age that feeling or expression of emotions was not accepted at home, so by this age I shut down my sensitivity, along with my emotional availability.

A combination of physical abuse and violence ensued, leading to my first period of depression. Panic attacks were already familiar friends of mine.

Cue cocaine, alcohol, and anything else that would go up my nose. I paired it with yoga and green juice though, which was very avant-garde for the early 2000’s in NYC. I began acting and modeling and going to conservatories to practice my craft.

This is where I found meditation, which led to meditating so often and working with energy intuitively, being able to manifest by moving emotional energy through my body and voice, and excitedly telling my friends and family. My body began shaking and as the depression deepened, I learned about kundalini and subsequently chose to party because it made me feel more connected and less weird (manifesting was not a buzzword at this time).

Early Twenties

I finished school, and immediately went on an around-the-world backpacking trip. From Guatemala through Europe, the Middle East, North Africa, and throughout Asia, I found myself planted in the subcontinent of India for 3 years as I obsessively tried to become enlightened. If anyone was going to do it, it would be me I thought.

After a meeting with an indigenous healer, my body began shaking and convulsing again, except this time I let myself surrender, leading to an 8+ year journey of navigating the messages, visions, and PTSD that combined with the violent convulsing and ticking my body would involuntarily make. The beginning of hell.

Late twenties

The process led to a healing journey like no other. Thankfully I had been teaching yoga and reiki for years, I was still acting and modeling internationally, and I was working as a writer and creative director for wellness brands. Work was working but it wasn’t what I was made for.

The nomad journey continued on, lasting about 6 years until I became semi-nomadic, with homebases in NYC and LA to pursue acting and modeling, and a new coaching and mentorship business born from the myriad of healing modalities I would come to learn in pursuit of being a semi-functional, still, human being.

Thanks to a lot of therapy and my love for the arts, these practices kept me sane and sent me to get my masters in expressive arts therapies and licensed as a professional clinical counselor and therapist (APCC), while I continued building and scaling this business and auditioning as an actor/model.

Thirties

I finally realized that my teenage self had been running the show with my acting career, when my soul knew my path all along. It seemed that my mind finally caught up with my soul’s growth in the kundalini awakening (the convulsing, shaking, and complete showdown, not just a shift in perspective), leading me to decide to go all in on my art and my work in MY way.

It wasn’t built to do it in any other way anyways.

My mission

The only way out is through, and through trusting with whispers of your soul, even if it is wildly chaotic at times. The other options lead to illness and dissociation.

Learning to trust in the unknown is the work of intuition, but it is also the work of creativity.

The more comfortable we can feel in the unknown the more we can create original work, uniquely our own, and gain access to non-local intelligent information.

I teach people like you how to do this too, because as a fellow creative, wild, soul, you and I both know we are meant for big things.

We change the world through our creativity. We change ourselves through deep acceptance, connection, truth, and love.

Thank you for reading my story. . . With love, Lexi Faith